Looking Forward? or Anxious?

A week and two days from now, I will see my dad whom I haven't seen for four years. M has not seen him for nine years.

I don't know if I am excited because he will be in MY house? or am I anxious? A dad is always a dad and wants the best for his children. He will probably be his own self who wants me to lose weight and be healthy ... lol....literally... lol .... who doesn't?

I AM looking forward to the fact that he will for once be away from my mom. Not that he hasn't before, but in the sense that he will be vacationing from her!

I just want him to be here already and I DO NOT know how I will react when he leaves. I am already devastated as is!

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